Praying for Weakness

               








       I have a problem with consistency.


  Before you say, “Now, don’t go being down on yourself…” hear me out.

“And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.  Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” (2nd Corinthians 12:9

 

Faith is only made strong when it is tested, and our personal downfalls are EXACTLY the kind of tests we need to become closer to God and his Love. We face tests and challenges from the world around us almost daily, and in those times it may be easy to be Faithful in God’s power in our lives. But what about when YOU are the test? I know from experience, it is very difficult to put YOU in God’s hand and ask him to change YOU.  That’s one of the strongest tests on our faith. I have to really think to myself, “Do I trust that God can fix me and am I willing to put in the hard work to be more like Christ?” Sometimes, it’s much easier to pray for others, and wash our hands thinking we have done our duty. Things will work out, God will fix it. Its easier because we don’t have to put in the work that God requires to fix the problems that you are praying for. When you pray for yourself, the only 2 who can work towards the fruition of that prayer are GOD and YOU. He will not just wave a magic wand of Deliverance and POOF! You’re healed, He will make you uncomfortable in your old ways, He will show you the consequences of your old ways, and He will CONVICT YOUR SPIRIT in the presence of your old ways!

  I have great intentions, I’m a master planner, and I have an amazing work ethic. I know my strengths and I use them to my advantage. But none of that changes the fact that I know I have a problem with being consistent, and following through with the things that I start. It’s not a desirable trait, and it isn’t something I am proud of, but it is a part of me nonetheless and I would be doing myself a great injustice if I didn’t acknowledge my own shortcomings. 

Someone once told me, a long time ago “If you know your weaknesses you can build your strengths around it”. I rediscovered this quote recently and it really convicted my spirit. How long have I been ignoring my weaknesses? Why have I been avoiding evaluating myself?

 It took a lot of praying and thinking for me to really see myself for who I am, but in my talks with God , I kept coming back to one thing that’s holding me from my full potential. My little habit of forgetting a task that I started, or sometimes deliberately ignoring some unpleasant task (yikes! Did I just admit that?), is the #1 thing that is seriously holding me back from getting were I want to be on my walk with God, in my marriage, in my children’s lives, and most of all, with my personal goals. This doesn’t make me a bad person, and it certainly doesn’t make me a failure at all. In fact, once I identified what it is about me that could possibly hold me back from realizing my full potential, I felt free. Now that I know my weakness, I can pray about it. I can put it on the altar, and ask God to help me with it.

  So I said all that to say, I am PUBLICLY and PROUDLY saying to all my readers, that GOD IS WORKING IN MY LIFE. He is working on me, and my inconsistencies. He can work with you for all of your weaknesses as well. So in addition to my other prayer requests, I am praying on my weaknesses and that they turn to my strengths.  I am also praying to find a home church that I can join with my family. We have gone to a few different churches in the past 2 years, so I am hoping that we can finally stop searching and join a beautiful church family. Will you pray with us?

What are your own shortcomings? What are some things you can do to remain accountable throughout your prayers?

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The Elections are Over, God’s work is not

With the elections finally over, I feel like I can finally exhale.  I am totally still “Feeling the Bern”! While this election’s outcome may not be what we hoped for, it may not be what we want, but it is what was chosen. Social media is an explosion of opinions on both sides of the political sphere and you have to have a very strong stomach to make it through some of these comment sections. But at the end of the day, we have no choice but to live!

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Big Plans for this Winter!

Proverbs 19:21

Many are the plans in a person’s heart,
but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.

 

I am so excited for the future that I am bubbling over with joy and gratitude. For now, All I will say is that Our God is an  Awesome God, and I am praying and praising him for the opportunities that He will send our way. Sometimes we forget the blessings because we are so focused with the burden. Well today, I am vowing to praise My God for the blessings that have been given to us, and to thank Him for the blessings yet to come! Amen!

Psalm 74:17

You have established all the boundaries of the earth; You have made summer and winter.

 

How I learned Grace under Fire was not a Personality Trait

 

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Grace Under Fire

 

I haven’t been around much, and for that I am truly sorry. There are not very many people who currently subscribe to my blog right now, but for the people who do:

  I first off want to say THANK YOU. I am a very overwhelmed mama. I am a mother to two beautiful amazing children. My 7 (almost 8) year old is heading into 3rd grade, which in our state means he will be doing into mandatory state testing to determine if he will be sent to the 4th grade. My almost 2-year-old (20 months) has had a few health issue this year, but thankfully she is growing into a healthy capable little girl whose spunk and curiosity means that I am always trying to stay one step ahead of her toddler shenanigans. I am the wife of an amazing husband, who is in the process of launching his new business, and I work full time. I say this not to make excuses, but to help myself understand the reasons I write in the first place.  Thank you, for watching my process even if you didn’t know you were doing that for me in the first place. Thank you for subscribing to my blog, and leaving your feedback on my posts. Thank you for joining in my journey! With that being said, LETS READ!

                –Humbly Yours

Emmylee

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Scared

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Hi Guys
My name is Emmylee and. ….

I’m a Scaredy Cat.
And a hypochondriac.
And a memory hoarder.
And an anxious mess.

So yeah, now that I have admitted it, it’s real. I literally have no idea how to fix this!
But before you go on about “just do it”
Let me explain first..

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Change

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My life is all about change. Most of the time it’s catastrophic earth-shattering life-altering monumental changes. I don’t know if i attract change or if I seek out the changes,  but I am always adapting to some new circumstance or situation. And don’t get me wrong,  I can handle everything I’m thrown (sometimes a little too well), but it can be scary. Overwhelming. Downright terrifying. But you make it through because you have to.

Lately,  I’ve been thinking alot about changes. I have this image of a perfect life in my mind,  and it is so easily attainable that I wonder why I’m still in my same surroundings. Same habits and thought process. Same “less than perfect” results. I know they say perfection is not a reality,  but with motivation and discipline you can get REALLY close.  Change for me has always been as a result of some unplanned situation,  but what if I made the choice to change that?  What if I CHOSE to change how I live in the most drastic ways? What if I changed my diet…excersized more…planned my days? What if I disciplined MYSELF?! *gasp*

Think with me for a minute…

A disciplined woman has a plan. She has a routine that allows grown, change, spontaneity. She knows to set her children’s clothes and lunches out at night. She sets out her own clothes and jewelry the night before. She ties up all her loose ends so they don’t fray on her later. A disciplined woman walks with confidence, grace, poise, and surprisingly JOY!

Ok so maybe I’m exaggerating a little,  but life is definitely sweeter when you have all your ducks in a row. I think that embracing change willingly can help me more than I care to admit. The thought of changing my bad habits is daunting but it can be done. I am usually forced out of my comfort zone,  and I always adapt. But am I so resilient on my own?

I think that my major tiny obsession with perfection is a driving force in my desire to change,  but I’m praying that I can see discipline as a way to get closer to God. Baba always told me,  “Ritual brings you in harmony with God.” I guess it’s time for this little yogi to start making life about ritual, routine, and discipline. It’s time for me to start taking control of my own changes!

Hmm… where to start?!

5 things I want my Kids to know about God

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There are so many things that I want my children to know. My biggest fear is that they will have to go through the same mistakes that I did because they do not know any better. I know as a parent, I have to teach them better in order for them to be able to bypass the lessons I learned from lack of knowledge. I wrote this list with the intent of putting my “main” lessons in writing for future reference. One day, when some lesson seems so huge to me, I can look back and remember that if these 5 things are covered, I did something right.

 

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